<Yue> thought back to everything, she also remembered the plan, and even more remembered what role she was supposed to play in this plan.
When she had just woken up in the ward, the subconscious in her memories still had the upper hand, she was in a state tending towards rationality, so that when she knew she had been calculated by herself, there was only an ordinary feeling in her heart that oh, so it was like this.
But now, as she and <Wu> rode the elevator down together, the feeling of weightlessness and her reflection in the elevator doors in front of her were all telling her about the reality she was in and who she was.
She was <Yue>, who had just turned 15 this year, and was about to take the junior high school entrance exam as a 3rd year junior high student.
Her only original goal was to eat, sleep and test into the high school closest to home, but now she was being told that she had to go and save the world?
Wasn't that too absurd?
From a rational point of view, she would rather believe that a magical girl could run out of the TV screen to save the world than believe that she, a junior high school student, would be more reliable. But her feelings and her heart were also telling her that everything was true.
Otherwise, why would she feel so painful when she thought of those people?
The pain of her memories mixed with the pain she felt now, so that she could not distinguish which one was the real her.
Just like a moment ago, when she first brought <Wu> out, it was only because she didn't want him to continue to suffer there, but in the end she unconsciously let <Wu> enter into the calculation....
If everything was just a calculation, then were all the emotions she had felt until now fake too?
At this moment, rather than going to get along with <Hui> according to the plan, <Yue> was faced with a problem that needed to be solved first.
Who exactly was she at this moment, and what exactly were her feelings?
"Yue, what's wrong with you?" <Wu> asked awkwardly when he saw Yue standing in front of the opened elevator door without moving.
<Yue> was brought back by this voice, subconsciously hiding her eyes, and said softly, "It's nothing, let's go find big brother."
<Yue> knew what kind of situation she was in now. After accepting a lot of memories, she was no longer the <Yue> who didn't understand herself and was carefree.
On the contrary, she now understood herself too well, so she knew that the only one who could pull her through now was <Yichen>.
I have to find big brother.
At this time, <Yichen> was with <Hui> standing guard outside the ICU ward. The two of them sat on stools and chatted casually.
After the conflicts of the first day, the relationship between the two of them seemed to have eased a little now.
"The doctor said the emergency treatment was very timely, did you do it?"
<Hui>'s expression was very ostentatious, with unabashed arrogance on her face, "It was me, that's right. Big brother, how do you plan to thank me, like driving out the other cuckoo occupying the magpie's nest?"
Facing <Hui>'s malicious words towards <Yue>, <Yichen> seemed to have gotten used to it already. He directly refused, "Impossible, you will both be Shen family’s children in the future, I will protect you. I know you had a hard time there, but <Yue> used to....”
"Don't say these things, I didn't come back to compare misery with this fake thing, I want the lab you promised, is it ready?"
<Yichen> rubbed his brow. This new sister was giving him almost as big a headache as <Wu> used to.
But when he thought of the life described in those fragmentary words about this real sister up to now, <Yichen> felt that <Hui> could have turned out much worse given her circumstances.
He sighed and said to <Hui>, "Get along well with <Yue>. I'll prepare the lab for you."
This time <Hui> agreed quickly, "Don't worry, as long as you give me the lab I absolutely won't disturb your intimate time together."
Just as she finished speaking, <Yue> and <Wu>'s figures approached from not far away. <Hui> closed her eyes directly, pretending not to see them.
<Yichen> thought for a moment, and didn't bother with <Hui> either. Instead, he went straight to <Yue>.
<Hui> squinted and watched <Yichen>’s departing back, a mocking smile at the corner of her mouth.
After all, people were always like this.
It didn’t matter anyway. She had only returned to the Shen family to use their resources to continue her research. If the Shen family knew she was spending their money leading them to their doom, their expressions would definitely be very interesting.
<Yichen> came to <Yue>'s side. His face showed unconcealed concern. Unlike <Hui>, the first thing he was concerned about was <Yue>'s unease.
However, this unease was also very strange. It seemed like unease, but also like something else.
<Yichen> couldn't really figure it out. He only knew that the current <Yue> was definitely not normal.
Especially when he saw <Yue> holding <Wu>'s hand, he became even more certain of this point.
<Yue> must be under such tremendous mental pressure that she would do something as preposterous as relying on <Wu>.
For some reason, even though <Yichen> hadn't said anything, <Wu> still inexplicably felt that someone was vilifying him. So he glanced at <Yichen>.
<Yichen> felt guilty, but he pretended to stay calm.
Just when he was about to not be able to pretend any longer, he heard <Yue> say to him, "Big brother, I've discovered that I'm a very scary person."
<Yichen> immediately sniffed out something unusual from <Yue>'s words. He looked at <Yue> gently and said, "Why do you say that? If it's because of <Hui>, it's not your fault. You don't need to feel any burden."
<Yue> didn't answer this question, but continued to ask, "Big brother, if the original intention of a relationship is to start with utilization and calculation, is such a feeling real?"
<Yichen> was stunned by <Yue>'s question. With his understanding of <Yue>, she would never be able to ask such a profound question. So there was only one answer left.
<Yue> must have started to doubt herself because of <Hui>'s appearance!
In fact, when he was 10 years old going through puberty, <Yichen> had contemplated this issue too, so he had quite a bit of experience. Facing <Yue>'s "adolescent" question, he knew very well how to answer.
Don't ask why <Yue>'s adolescence was at 15 while his was at 10. Just know it's big brother's privilege.
"<Yue>, your question is overthinking things. How should you define a relationship that starts with utilization? Strictly speaking, the beginning of all emotions is impure. The pursuit of all emotions is to fill the voids in one's heart. Like me, taking care of my younger siblings and you can make me feel a sense of purpose for my existence. This is why I devote myself to all of you. I'm also using you to fill my own void.
But even so, can you say my devotion to you is fake? Can you say the care and love you feel is fake? Can you say the time we spent together was fake?
<Yue>, don't overthink what's real or not. You're <Yue>, just be <Yue>, like you always were."
"<Wu> rarely spoke sensibly to help out, "You called me fifth brother all day today, yet you can still ask such stupid questions."
<Yue> opened her mouth. Her instincts let her know what to say now to manipulate the two people in front of her, but her vision, gradually blurred by tears, also swallowed up the instincts that had been ingrained into her bones at the same time.
At this moment, just like <Yichen> said, she was only <Yue>.
Like she had always been before.
So <Yue> wiped a bunch of tears and snot on <Yichen>'s expensive suit.
"Big brother, use your tie to wipe my nose..."
"<Yue>!"
"Waaaahhhh......"
"Just this once... here, take it."
