Si Chengyou did not respond or look at Shen Yue, but continued speaking, "However, I did not know how to use the space-time medium. I tried many methods while escaping and reading all kinds of information, but to no avail.
In the end, I died at the moment when the landscape collapsed.
At that time, I had nothing going through my mind. I only regretted that I had not grown strong enough before everything began, otherwise I wouldn't have spent such a helpless three years."
Si Chengyou paused here, changed his tone, smiled at Shen Yue and said, "You must think these are experiences I've gone through, but actually not. I just have these memories. In my mind, there are 25 layers of memories."
Si Chengyou kept staring at Shen Yue's expression. As he had expected, Shen Yue did not seem surprised at all, as if she had known about this long ago.
"My first memory is what I just told you. The second memory is a little different. I don't know if it was because it was the first time I received a memory transfer, but I fell into a coma from age 9 to 15. When I woke up at 15, I did not immediately believe in the things in the memories. Everything was repeated.
In the third memory, I woke up still at 15. This time, there was some suppression in my heart. After seeing the scenes in the memories, I immediately told my family, but none of them believed me. I could only keep learning theories about space-time travel by myself. With the ending unchanged again...I obtained my fourth memory.
The fourth time, I only fell into a coma until I was 12 years old. At that time, I realized perhaps the length of the coma had to do with obsession. The stronger my obsession was, the earlier I could wake up. That is to say, although only the memory carrier was left when the future me traveled through space-time, the remaining ideological energy could still influence the past self.
That time, I began investigating information about the space-time medium. When I was 23, I found your sister. I was going to kill her but failed.
In the fifth memory, I no longer fell into a coma. I just received the memories a little later at 10 instead of 9 years old. That time I trained my physical abilities, assassination, fighting, and so on. I wanted to kill Shen Hui but still failed.
It was as if Shen Hui knew what I would do every time and dodged it." Si Chengyou looked at Shen Yue again. Shen Yue still did not seem surprised. He understood and continued speaking.
"The sixth time, I obtained the memories even later than last time, when I was almost 11 years old. That time, I learned even more things but still failed."
"In the tenth memory, I almost managed to snatch the space-time medium from Shen Hui but still did not succeed. That time I also discovered that every time I transferred memories, the timeline would be a little later than the previous one, and things that had already happened in the previous timeline would not change.
I realized that I would not have too many chances.
From that time on, before dying every time, I tried my best to learn more in hopes that I could give more bargaining chips to my past self.
The 26th memory is my present.
After failing to assassinate Shen Hui for the last time and being thrown into Flightless Bird by her, judging by the timeline, even if I use the space-time medium now to transfer my memories back, I would only be transferring them back to when I entered prison. I'm already powerless. You don't have to worry that I will kill you for the space-time medium either."
What Si Chengyou said seemed reasonable, but Shen Yue immediately sensed something wrong and flatly said, "If you've already given up, why did you get close to me in the first place? What exactly are you trying to do?"
Si Chengyou also knew he couldn't fool Shen Yue. He gently said, "The essence of the space-time medium is actually transferring memories rather than transferring souls.
From the theological perspective, a person's body has limited capacity and cannot fit two complete souls. From the physical perspective, it is brain capacity. The limitations of the human body make the human body unable to accept another independent thought. How many times memories can be transferred also depends on brain capacity.
My brain now holds 26 memories and can no longer fit any more. But I can find someone with brain capacity left to replace me and continue this mission."
"So have you found that person?" Shen Yue asked.
"I didn't find anyone originally, but I have now."
Seeing Si Chengyou staring straight at herself, Shen Yue understood what he meant and resolutely said, "I refuse."
Si Chengyou smiled bitterly, "You won't consider it at all?"
"No need to consider," Shen Yue answered very quickly. "Si Chengyou, I'm not you. I have no regrets."
No regrets, so no ideological energy, unable to transfer memories back through the space-time medium—this was a conclusion Shen Hui had verified before.
Death and regret were indispensable.
But now she had no regrets. She had nothing to regret.
After being rejected, Si Chengyou turned his head and drank some wine without mentioning this matter again.
After quite a while, he spoke again, "Ma Sha’s grandfather has died. In another 3 months, Ma Sha's country will disintegrate. Do you want to take Ma Sha back to visit her homeland before that?"
Shen Yue knew Si Chengyou’s information was not groundless. After thinking it over, she nodded, "Any missions to go there recently?"
Si Chengyou shook his head. "No, but I can let you leave Flightless Bird."
Shen Yue did not answer right away. Si Chengyou added, "You can also take whoever you want with you."
Shen Yue asked, "Does Flightless Bird belong to you?"
"No."
"Then how can you do all this?" Whenever Shen Yue felt she could see through Si Chengyou, he would reveal new cards.
Si Chengyou didn’t answer. "Are you worried about me?"
Shen Yue didn't answer either. She spoke of something else, "You said you were scared of many things before. Not anymore?"
Si Chengyou put down the wine bottle and walked down from the bay window. Backlit, his facial expression was unclear. Shen Yue could only hear him whispering by her ear, "I've not been scared for a long time already. Don't be scared either. Just go your own way. No need to look back."
That day, Shen Yue indeed did not look back, so Si Chengyou was not in her eyes. She also did not see the despair in Si Chengyou’s eyes.
Si Chengyou no longer met with Shen Yue. Shen Yue also stopped going to Building No. 5. Just as everyone guessed whether the two had a falling out, Shen Yue had already planned who she wanted to bring with her when leaving the prison—
No. 14, Li Feng, Aisi, Aman, Danni La.
The strength of these people could help her reach her destination faster.
Soon, the time came for Shen Yue and Si Chengyou’s agreed departure from prison. To Shen Yue’s surprise, the person seeing them off was the prison warden.
Even so, Si Chengyou still said Flightless Bird didn’t belong to him? Shen Yue didn’t believe that.
Under the warden’s escort, she and her chosen people boarded the plane leaving Flightless Bird, completely departing it.
Throughout the journey, apart from No. 14, the other few were exceptionally excited. They hadn't expected to be able to leave this ferocious prison and see the real sky again.
In Shen Yue's arms were Ma Sha’s ashes. Her left earring sparkled brightly.
